Listen To Your Heart

For some reason or other, I just can't stand this pain. Not no, not self-inflicted though. It's been a lonely journey for me, really and to fight this war on my own, the ammunity I'm running out of needs to be replenished lest I won't survive. Solitary. At times, in Life that you will realise that in this timeless and precious journey, you are like a nomad travelling alone but if you happen to find an acquaintance to accompany you, you're lucky to be the chosen one..

I haven't been lucky though, just my fate maybe. Perhaps, God is rewarding me by gifting me the luxury of time, err maybe at the expense of the sacrificing my patience and kindness. My bad. For your information, I don't need others to have a say in my life, unless you are the people who watched me grow up and only if you're the people who allowed me to be what I am today.. My parents and families. :)

Respect is of an unstable issue in this case. Two sides to it, well it's a very complicated fact so don't bother asking. Since I am a professional expert at displaying facades and keeping mum about certain things that are personal, it would be a waste of breath if you even ask. Things hasn't been going on well for meat all, but I try to stay and think positive. It's hard.

A whole list of questions in my mind, but I can't ask. Oh well at times, some questions just don't have answers, agree? All I am going to do is endure. I'll be nice but not as nice. I'll forgive but I shan't forget.

"Try to put yourself in my shoes and tell me the best way out, please?" *sighs*

After the session, Aisah and me then headed to Khatib to meet the Hyrulites Exco for a meeting regarding the Games Day. I smelled a rat somewhere when she tried to dilly-dally especially when she came up with the sudden idea to go to Popular. Hmm.. But I follow suit and had nothing else on my mind. She said she had already told Cik Murni that we would be late so I guessed it should be alright. And we went to the Popular at Northpoint before meeting up with the rest.

Once done, we headed to Khatib MRT station. I was wondering why Liana, Shikin & Izar were late. To be honest, I was quite pissed off. Pukul berapa sia nak start meeting! And then Aisah said to wait at the carpark and Shasha will fetch us. So I was thinking why the world would Shasha be present at our meeting? So I thought maybe she had nothing better to do so she joined her parents lah. When she eventually reached, Fy was inside and that rang a bell, a little. Liana too was inside.

Okay fine. Shasha berlakon marah eh, lol! So I thought Izar and Shikin must already be with Cik Murni & Uncle Ahmad.. How innocent, not!

And then! That mak-tiri Nuraisyah Ahmad suddenly tied something to my eyes and blinfolded me! Ganas betol! Very tight sia she tie! Lol. And yes, I already knew the agenda! Honestly, I felt very very nervous and scared! Fy and Aishah hold on tight to me so that I wouldn't be able to take off my blindfold. Liana kept on laughing and Shasha drove like a maniac lah! Pening sia. Sengaja kan!

When we reached the place(I found out it was Seletar Dam!), they led me out of the car and they made me walk around-guided like an idiot, here and there. And oh, they made me bang into a pole, thanks to Hyrul. Okay Hyrul and Liana, sorry! Lol! They made me walk and walk and Ibanged into a rubbish bin! Till eventually..

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time: 10.30pm till late.
Venue: Seletar Dam.

When I unveiled my blindfold, I could see everyone in their masks! Aiyo so sweet!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Hahahahahahah.. :)

We even had the time to play the Game Of Concentration. Lol to Aisah, forever. And err, lol to myself too. Heh. Damn it. :)

Yes, it was a DIRTY surprise!

Some of the people who were there..

The rubbish bin they made me knock into! Damn it.

The large lampost/pole which they make me bang into! Thanks eh Hyrul & Liana! Grrr.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY WANI! (Fauzie Laily's No.1 fan!)
Dah tua on 14 January! Lol.
January babies are the sweetest right?
Yeah! :)

There was a lot of food, really.. Can bukak warong there man..

The dangdut shawl, the tiara and the pompoms.. Yippee! :)

I wasn't sure what I was doing lah.. Lol.

The babes of the night! :) (I did not take a solo pic with Fy and Deela! Argh!)

Dia kasih hadiah, kita mintak maaf segala dosa eh? Lol kidding. *inside joke*

If you're looking for Cinderella's stepmother, there you found her..

Exco with love, incomplete though..

With the Man..

We were playing the Game Of Concentration..

Shasha: 10-10-2-2! Lol! Susah betol! *laughs*

This photo ended up like a kenduri doa selamat session but Ustaz Hyrul pakai cap. Lol.

Party babe!

Two left profilers spoil the pic! Hahah but I still love you! Lol.

This is Inshira Rappa.. Hehehe..

This is Shakilla.. That little brat kaypoh lol.

Just look at her adorable face.. Not mine, Batrisyia's!

The malu-malu kucing Atiyah! Hahaha..

Adli a.ka Ollie.. When SP meets NP. Lol.

Pakcik Maman, Aisah, Yourstruly..

Mr. Tanda Kasih looking very casual!~~

And thanks to the Mastermind, Cik Murni! Don't we all love her? :)

It was a special day for me cause I met the two most-good looking people who inspires me! That's TAUFIK BATISAH & HYRUL ANUAR! :)

Yes, it is a dream come true! Alhamdulilah <3>

Thank you to all who were there at the surprise!
Thank you for all the gifts!
Thank you for the birthday songs!
Thank you for the two birthday cakes!
Thank you for the time spent!
Thank you for everything!!~~

I feel very appreciated and I feel really grateful for that.
Thank Allah for everything. Amin. I feel great turning 19th.
I know I'm still young.

Thank you for all those wished through sms, calls, facebook PMs,
forums, friendster and all.. Love you guys lots, really!
Thanks for making my nineteen a memorable one yeah! :)

SUNDAY
Got home in the afternoon. My family wished me Happy Birthday by spending the afternoon together watching television. Will be having a BBQ on the 24th so that's when the family will celebrate my birthdays together with my uncle's and cousin's. :)

In the evening, I met Nurul JB! It's been more than a year since we last saw her man! Had dinner with her and Jurong Point and she gave me her self-made Pink/Black cupcakes as a birthday gift! So sweet you know! And she came all the way from Skudai to Singapore just to pass me my gift! Thanks babe! Really appreciate it! <3>

I love love love it! :) She now owns a baking business by the way!

Pink & Black you know! Makin I suka nyah!

Never changed a single bit but she's now attached. Hahaha cepat kahwin! :)
MONDAY
Came to school and was 10minutes late for DPIP lecture but Eliza started only when
i reached the lecture theatre, cheybahh perfect timing! And hey thank you ECHers
for the loud birthday song straight after lecture ended! Hahahaha..

From my clique in poly, The Pisangs. Yes I know it's a weird name. Lol.
TUESDAY
Time: 6.30pm.
Venue: Mad Jack Cafe, Paradiz Centre.

I met up with the Petik5 for a dinner and catch up session. Ours may seem a small clique but only Sv and me will know how difficult it is to gather the 5 of us for a gathering! Lol.

We had dinner at Mad Jack, sumptous and sinful. Plus dessert and the surprise birthday song.
And and the surprise birthday call from that Mat KL, Syed Azmir! See lah you, I've begun calling you that already, haha damn cute ah itu mat.. Hilarious. :)

The dinner was long and we were making so much noise in the restaurant laughing at each other's candid and selenger moments, practically! And oh the dress code was to wear your favourite color, which means that I was supposed to wear Pink/Black. But my outfit was too glamourous lah I came from school hello! I was carrying my laptop summo man! Heh. Next time I wear! Valentines! :)

We then went over to Plaza Singapura and Wana for the happy gober for the night. You know,
I know. At around nine, we walked all the way to Clarke Quay. Sorry Jamilah to have made your kaki sakit! Lol, who's idea was it for us to walk? Sv or Aisah kan? Hahaha. And oh I love brisk walking especially at night. I love the effect of the wind as it blows on my skin and hair(exceptional), heaven. :)

Just the five of us..

Got mad after the meal, totally!~~

Zawanah Hasyim, Siti Aisah Sapuan & Nuraini Jumat..

Siti Jamilah Asisi & Nur Hafizah Zahari..

Did not want to have such a heavy meal lah..

Before we gobbled down the food..

Okay here's the aftermath! Lol.

Got so excited with the surprise call from S.A.S.A! Lol.

Celebrating the night for the Petiks..

Pink/Black changed to Red/Black. Wrong channel lah Fiza!

Blow blow blow! Tk bermaya..

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO JAMILAH!
Selamat Hari Tua on the 14th January!
Dah tua dah tua dah tua..
Lekas cari jodoh aku kahwinkan.. Lol!

Someone get me his album, pretty please! And Didi's too! Lol. :)

Clarke Quay, guess who was the photographer? Bingo!~~

Once again, from the bottomest of my heart:
Thank you for everything!~~

Fiza loves all of you! <3

Pssst: If I really had the choice to choose, it would definitely be you.